Pups has been teaching me so much about my relationship with
God in the past week. Pups’ genuine love for me has caused me to evaluate my
heart for God.
After being at school for a few months, I came home on
Friday for Thanksgiving Break to the warmest welcome home I have ever experienced. Pups was going
absolutely ballistic, running in circles and jumping up and down and barking
because he could not contain his excitement. He was jumping on the furniture,
doing laps through the house, and just wanting me to hold him or touch him or
pet him. Literally all week long, he has been all over me. He sleeps in my bed,
with his little paws wrapped tightly around me. He listens to everything I say.
If I tell him to move to a different spot on the bed, he obeys because he knows
that it will please me. He so desperately wants to please me, not because he's to
earn anything for himself, but simply because he loves me so much. He isn’t trying to
earn an extra bone or a longer walk in the morning. He just loves me, and wants
to be obedient to me out of love. He follows me around the house, never wanting
to leave my side. It’s honestly hard for me to leave home, because he cries
and whines and looks at me with these sad puppy dog eyes and watches me through
the window as I pull out. Even from the end of the driveway, I can see that sad
look in his eyes as I drive off without him. He wants nothing more than to be
in my presence. He wants to come in the car. He doesn’t care where we are
going, he just wants to be there with me. It’s really the sweetest dang thing. It’s
the most genuine, unconditional love.
These things clearly reflect a person’s relationship with
God. Do we genuinely love Him? Do we long to be in His presence? Do we jump up
and down with excitement over spending time with Him? If someone looked at our
lives, would it be clear based on your daily life that you love Him?
When I take hPups running, he completely trusts me. He stays
by my side, and trusts that where I am taking him is safe. We run through the
neighborhood, through parks, across busy streets, up and down and back through
trails. If I were to run in front of a car, he would be right by my side. He
trusts me without hesitation. And it is true, I love him back, and am looking out
for his best interest. Sometimes, he doesn’t want to stop at the crosswalk. He
wants to just keep going! But sometimes, there’s a car whipping around the
corner, and it’s not safe to keep going. He wants to get to the other side of
the street, which looks like so much fun, but the path to get there is not safe
yet. I hold him back. For him, at the time, he might not understand why I would
make him stop running and ruin the fun, but he trusts me anyway. I keep him on
a leash because I love him, not because I am trying to make running a little
bit less fun for him or because I enjoy restraining his freedom. I love him and
want to make sure he is safe!
Do we trust God completely? Are we ok with being put on a “leash”
if that means that God is keeping us safe? Do we trust Him that His prevention
of certain ‘fun’ things in our lives is for our benefit? Do we stay right at
our Master’s side, or do we try with all our might to break the leash?
Every time I walk in the door, even if I’ve only been gone
for an hour, or for 15 minutes, Pups greets me with excitement. His love is so
genuine! He jumps up on me and nuzzles my hands because he is genuinely excited
to be with me! If this were just a routine, however, I wouldn’t feel the love. If
I trained him to stand up and walk over to me and bark three times and lick my
hand, and he did this every time I walked in the door, I wouldn’t feel the
love. Although these actions might look similar on the outside, the heart
behind them is completely different, and the Master feels the genuine love that
comes from the heart.
Do we “spend time” with God out of a true desire of our heart
to meet with Him? Or are we in a routine where we have been “trained” to read
our Bibles for 15 minutes every morning or say a thirty-second prayer before we
eat? God doesn’t care about worthless deeds, He cares about our hearts behind
them.
Here’s another what-if scenario. Let’s say that every time I
came home, Pups was excited to see me and showed me all kinds of affection. Feeling
the love, I wanted to reward him in
return. I was not obligated to, but I wanted to. So I started giving him a
Milkbone after he greeted me at the door. After a few weeks, let’s pretend that
Pups started to like the Milkbone more than he liked me. Even though I’m the
one who bought the Milkbone from the store, brought it home, opened the bag,
and put it in his mouth. All of that came from me. When I got home, he was no
longer excited about seeing me, he was excited about me giving him the
Milkbone. He started to love the gifts I provided more than he loved me for
myself. This would be very hurtful to me! If I stopped providing the Milkbone,
would he still love me? Or would he feel as though I had removed something from
his life that he “deserved?”
Are we obedient to Him because we love Him, or because we
want rewards for ourselves? Are we obedient to Him at all? Do we “spend time”
with Him out of a true desire of our heart to meet with Him? Or are we more in
love with Creation than the Creator?
Food for thought. Shout out to Pups for being the best and
most snuggly dog ever.